i have't blogged in a REALLY long time

summer's over...literally in less than 30 hours i'll be in school, suffering all over again
and yet there's a certain excitement about the first day, MAYBE the first week (but that's highly doubtful)
seeing who's in my classes, meeting teachers, all that great fun stuff that only lasts for...
a day.
i guess i am excited for everytihng to start up again...speech and debate, flute, symphony, golf, softball (which i mght not do, but we'll see),
and starting new things...horseback riding, not procrastinatin (we'll see how long that lasts)
and forming new relationships with people that i wasn't that close to last year ;)
everyone says junior year is the hardest year of them all. i don't doubt that. i have 4 aps along with anatomy (which seems super hard) and a ton of extracurriculars on top of needing to find some volunteer hours somewhere.
but at the same time it seems like the funnest so far. prom. winterformal. getting out early EVERY day. driving.
but then it goes back to the work. morrissey posted assignments for the first few weeks of school. i can already tell her class is going to be bad. sad. (make people) mad. (especially those little) lad(s). (who will think its just another) fad. hehe okay i'm done
school. with it comes all the ups and downs. i wonder how this year will end. it's literally the beginning. nine whole months of the same routine. here we go again.

catching up with old friends :)

i love talking to friends i haven't talked to in forever
a.l. helped me put the golf problem into perspective
it's still somethign that's weighing heavily on my mind and i'm still not sure if i wanna continue or quit
i hate quitting but if i'm really not going to be happy, i'm going to do what i have to do
idk i just feel threatened by the prospect of a) not being captain next year b) not being top 5? c) being alone
c is my biggest issue and becaues of that i love noor even more because without her i would have quit a long time ago
and then i talked to laura r. tonight. hehe boys :D
even though they're stupid and whatever, sometimes its good to just be a girl and break down :)
anyway, i'm excited for teh mock tourney tomorrow, even though me and kristen spent 4 hours doing debate stuff and not accomplishing much xD
oh well tomorrow will be INTERESTING for SURE!!! i hope i getta go watch steffi :D
anyway, it's late and it's time for me to sleep cuz i have to wake up at 545!!!

home at last

i'm home
and i'm not sure how to feel about that
i guess it was good to come home see my parents and brother and dog and grandparents and uncles and all
but at the same time i miss camp...it was soooo fun
espeically towards the end
so i flew home yesterday for the first time by myself
it was exciting and somewhat uneventful
alena, jeff, david and i were all flying american so we all checked in together
alena and jeff went to one end of the self-checkin booths and david and i were next to each other at the other
apparently you needed a credit card to pay $15 to check the bag, so good thing i had the debit card with me
david didn't have one, so we spent like 20 min waiting for someone to come help us before we finally decided just to go ask someone else, (at this point he had like 15 min till his flight left)
once he paid and we got to security we had a good 5 minutes left
we got to his terminal and everyone was like WHERE WERE YOU? it was great
haha
but at the same time i'm sad i didn't bond with alena and david more, we bonded at the AIRPORT! and now i'm probably never gonna see them again. unless we go to like iowa next year or something...who knows :)
i can't wait to see my CPS girls eventually too, and we're going to plan a tim and mike plus 16 reunion sometime soon too! maybe over winter break :)
that's exciting
but now it's like 230 or so in the morning and i should probably sleep xD

last day of camp

i'm sad to be leaving
i'm nervous to go home for a few reasons
but at the same time,
i'm excited that i'm going home
i learned SO MUCH here, about debate, people, friends etc.
i made a ton of new friends (yay for nat circuit tourneys!)
i got excited about debate again
and i wonder if my mom will let me do some travelling for debate (though i doubt it :()just being exposed to some nat circuit debate will make me better, get me more points, etc. i would love to go to some out of state tourneys, and if not then at least some more in-state CA tourneys!
i'm going to miss everyone here! especially tim and mike. they were AWESOME lab leaders...the best here in my opinion! and of course i'll miss the CPS girls--sarah, paige, may, and virginia--super awesome people that were my closest friends the last week of camp! yoshi, my roommate, nottoo much to say about her =/
katie bauer--hope you're doing good and that i talk to you soon
david bruns-smith--i really just met you a few days ago...never really talked to you, but i'm glad i did :)
everyone else at camp too...thanks for making it such a great experience and i hope i see you sometime at some tournament somewhere :)

i'm tired

today was good though
lets see, woke up too late to go to breakfast
jamba juice for breakfast with pagie and ginny
then lecture which i didn't pay attention to at ALL
and then lunch
elective (SCRABBLE!!!)
lab (lame)
lecture (actually surprisingly fun, all about economics and game theory so we gotta play games! :D)
then dinner where the IE'ers gave us a show--they were REALLY GOOD!!!
then the CPS girls and i tried to get in trouble--we climbed a tree, tried to break into super camp, then broke into the guys football dorms next door
came back, didn't really do too much, helped david research for the demo debate tomorrow which will be crazy good!
i'm really sad that today's the next to last day...it IS really sad
oh yeah i got a ton of candy from my aunt in the mail today! THANKS AUNT DEBBIE and uncle ned!!! <3
wow its already 2:15...great
i'm getting 3 hours of sleep! whoohoo!!!
maybe less depending on how late i stay up
OH YEAH!!! I TALKED TO HEATHER TODAY! but not for very long :( but i'll tty her more later!!! i missed her mucho while she was gone but now she's back in the world of teh living
and lets see..i have weird bruises on the back of my left hand...totally bizarre...oh yeah i worked on some stuff for the mock tourney on saturday...taht should be thrilling yay -_-
though, i'm actually looking forward to it
at first, i hated stanford
but it really showed me how much i love debate
like a lot
and i'm really really glad i came :)
i wanna go to iowa next year! that'll be awesome! :D

away and home

i love being away from home
it's one of the greatest feelings ever, no parents, no duties, no nothing!
but at teh same time, i've been away from home for almsot 2 weeks now and idk, i kinda feel like my life at home is going to be radically changed in the 3 weeks ive been away
first of all: golf...the whole team bonding thing...i'm not quite sure hwo i feel about that at the moment, i mean yeah sure it's great fun to get to go out to eat and play minigolf, but i'm pretty sure 90% of the team hates me and if they don't hate me, i'm pretty sure they'll soon start
brings up my 2nd argument (sorry still in debate mode) kelly left. okay i will admit i'm not 100% sad about this. i hate people being better than me at stuff. BUT! i was willing to sacrifice a little because with her it meant we might have a chance at actually not being dead last this year
and my last argument is: i'm a little nervous going into the season. it's teh first time i'm 100% alone. like truly alone except for the few matches noor and juwon go to. and i'm sad. i miss megan and i miss having people that actually listen to me. they wanted to vote for captain, meaning of course i wouldn't be captain next year. which i'd admit, would suck. actually to the point where i would just quit golf. actually i'm really close todoing that this year. idk we'll see but idk i'm not so into it and it's just not fun i guess anymore.
next: debates today!
they were really good i either went 3-1 or 4-0 today so we'll see :) meaning my overall record was either 7-1 or 6-2 whcih is AMAZING considering everyone here is like pretty decent debaters :D
tongiht was fun too...i really like hanging out with paige and sarah and virginia and may they're really fun :D
yoshi was kind of a party pooper though she didn't want to do anything
sam walking around with his shirt off hahaha showing his six pack
lab was crazy...basketball woot! haha
okay i'm like really tired and at least we getta sleep in but i'm still like really tired so i'm going to bed now :)

debates day one

today was one of teh best day's i've had at camp
i faced 2 novice 2 varsity
first round novice with ari as the judge...went kinda badly but i won
second round vs alena...my aff case is awesome lemme tell you...win woohoo!
third round vs. may...my neg case sucks...so she won :) (which i'm totally okay with)
fourth round vs. novice...again with aff it was an awsome round...and the judge was totally cool
lab was friggin hilarious...sarah was pushed over the brink, fire was created in 1945, and sam slept through all his cx time :)
after, i opened the skittles and airheads and hung with may, virginia, paige and sarah
sarah pushed me over the brink and we ended up having a full-out pillow fight that included us throwing skittles at us and running up and down all the floors like crazy women
we have to do a reenactment tomorrow for the camera HAHA
dude it was so fun and friggin hilarious :D
these last couple of days will by far be the best ever!
tim and mike plus 16 lab reunion!!! :D

hm...it's been a couple of days

so...let's see..what's happened since august 5?
katie left on thursday for good
i stayed with her until 330 when she left, and mike and time got pissed cuz i was 2 hours late to lab
but friends are more important than debate
and i debated chris...it was a good debate, no winner so that's good :)
and then yesterday, yoshi and i were late to mike's lecture
i'm sure he thinks really badly of me now cuz on the very first day he said he hated people being late =/
but whatevs, after today there's only 4 more days left!!! WOOHOO!!! that excites me...i can't wait to get home, go rollerblading, horseback riding, s&d, (golf not so much) and all the awesome things i do at home
plus i'm almost done with summer hw...just rhetoric of rhetoric to do and i'm 1/3 of the way done with it! :D
today i have 4 debates, one after breakfast, 2 after lunch, and 1 after dinner
luckily there are 2 different flights in each round...i hope i get first flight for all of them that way i can have mroe free time to work on whatever i want :)
and my OA is coming along nicely...that's what i've been spending most of my free time on instead of working on debate stuff (sad huh considering i'm at debate camp?!?) haha oh wells i can choose how i spend my 'free' time :)
OH YEAH! i got two packages yesterday! one from danny/mike/sunny/gram and the other from megan!!! hehe that just about made my day esp. since i was fighting with yoshi and didn't have katie here XD
but yeah, i'm not looking forward to debating for the entire day today
just like a tournament
but i guess its good prep...get my blood flowing and my mind working since it's been dead the entire summer XD
i should go prep now :P

lie to me

that's the fox show i'm watching right now
it's like REALLY good
and i know i should be going to bed but eh why? XD
today was fun day
we went to great america
went on EVERY ride by let's say 130?
then katie got henna tattoo on her back
so we had to wait like 2 1/2 hours for it to dry...we sat on a bench in the shade for an hour then lay on the grass for an hour
then just kinda got up and walked around
i got REALLY sunburned on my nose
and i'm really tired
but i guess that's my own fault for watching the show :)
uhm...katie might leave teh camp...but i hope not
so i'm going to go to bed now
that was a lame/random blog XD

awesome day!

so today was suppossed to be one of the worst days at camp
i mean, what can get worse than lecture, elective, then lab for the rest of the entire day (6 1/2 hours)
BUT! lab wasn't terrible...i mean sure my debate kinda failed (excuses: team debate sucks. i couldn't understand the arguments my partner wanted me to make. the girl i was debating is my unofficial enemy at camp.) but the criticizm i received was decent (still wish i was in the middle lab though!)
then andrew came and picked me up. we went to this cafe place for dinner where they sat us in the back so they couldn't hear us 'arguing' :D
had french toast with fruit...it was goood! :)
then lets see...oh yeah, we walked around the mall for awhile then went to go see a movie in mountain view
we saw the proposal which was really cute/good!
then we drove back...got back around 930
i'm really really glad i got to spend time with andrew, i never get to see him and he's one of teh only cousin's i ever really talk to (along with teh other andrew :D)
i always have a good time when i go do stuff with him becuase like...we can tease each other and then laugh about it and just like have a good time...carefree...
just plain fun
so i got out of lab for 5 hours, and then i get to have a great time with my cousin...couldn't have been better :)
and tomorrow is fun day
i'm tempted to just sleep in, not shower ;)
and then we go to the amusement park...no debate no nothing
meaning end of week one! woohoo! :D
only 8 more days to go
cannot wait to get home
i know it can't be as bad as i make it sound, but it really does like...make me not want to debate
its sooo intensive and so work-oriented and there is NO fun
except for today and tomorrow
and the rest is work
i might try writing another affirmative case that says something like providing a counterplan idk i've always liked something like that but we'll see :)
but anyway, ive been writing this blog for 40 min cuz i've been super distracted
going to sleep now :)

random blog of random stuff

first of all i am SO glad for the internet
both my roommates are asleep so i have some time to myself (finally!)
so i think this is going to be more of a ranting blog, but we'll see as we go along
first of all, ranting about my roommates
yoshi talks SO MUCH! like not anything important, just TALKING, and it gets annoying after awhile! she's nice don't get me wrong but she TALKS excessively
katie b. is cool i like her alot, but she's got a hot head...and talks to her boyfriend ALL THE TIME (which is understandable...but we'll get back to the dorm after dinner at 6 and she'll be talking to him until like 12 at night...that's a bit excessive don't ya think?)
let's see...for my other friends at debate camp
oh wait that's right...i dont HAVE other friends...there are people i've talked to once or twice, but that doesn't count
all the people i see on a regular basis are SO ANNOYING...this girl alena is one of those 'suck up i know everytihng' types of people...she is ALWAYS answering the questions and just UGH
there are other annoying people too though
and it's sad because we were saying the only real friends we have at the camp our our roommates (there's 3 of us -_-)
i'm tired in case i sound bitchy just figured i'd have an excuse ready ;)
let's talk about debate camp in general
it sucks.
there is SO MUCH WORK it's like school
lecture, elective, lunch, lab, lecture, lab, dinner, office hours
typical day...oh yes, that's great fun
we have free time...yoshi and i get frozen yougurt and bring ti back to the room while katie talks to her bf
that's our typical day...no joke
without internet i'd just about die
no joke there either
i met a guy that goes to saint margaret's...our rival school...he's a junior, really hot/cute, and nice and funny too, but of course he had to hang out with that alena girl...ugh
oh yeah, i got put into the most advanced lab which sucks cuz it means MORE work! like we had to write aff and neg cases in one night...which sucks cuz that includes all the research for it and everything too
and i'm NOT a good debater...so idk why i was put in there...sadly there's nothing i can do to change it...oh well...glad i like my lab leaders though...tim and mike (even though i kinda sorta know mike better) but whatever they're cool and that makes it sorta better
i'm REALLY hoping andrew and i can do something tomorrow...still gotta check with him and the camp director, so we'll see...but that'l save me from the last 2 hour lab period tomorrow and teh pain and torture of debating!
we've been averaging 5 hours of sleep a night, and tonight will be no exception for us...or me at least...yippee
i'm REALLY tired though
so i probably should go
at least one good thing happened today ;)
and oh yeah i shot the moon in hearts while playing during a lecture
and got my high score in tetris while playing during the other lecture ;)

day 2

its 623 right now as i start writing this
we woke up at 545 to shower...which is hard but good because there's absolutely no one awake so we can shower for as long as we want :)
but then we are all really tired
so let's see...yesterday
case writing lecture in the morning which was BORING!
then a short lab time, which was eh not too exciting
lunch we walked to bookstore so katie and yoshi could buy lanyards for their keys
then another lecture about research
then 3 hours of research -_-
but at least i found a lot of good information
then we got pizza for dinner...like 'gourmet' pizza (or not d.c. food)
then i spent a good 3 hours straight working on writing a case for debate
it was a painful process but at least i got it done!
then while katie was talking to her bf and yoshi was finishing her case, i finshed in cold blood hw YAY!
(so now i only have to do rhetoric of rhetoric...ugh!)
we went to bed semi-early...or at least before 12 so that we would get a little bit of sleep before waking up
and as soon as katie is done drying her hair i think i'll go dry mine too
exciting times