away and home

i love being away from home
it's one of the greatest feelings ever, no parents, no duties, no nothing!
but at teh same time, i've been away from home for almsot 2 weeks now and idk, i kinda feel like my life at home is going to be radically changed in the 3 weeks ive been away
first of all: golf...the whole team bonding thing...i'm not quite sure hwo i feel about that at the moment, i mean yeah sure it's great fun to get to go out to eat and play minigolf, but i'm pretty sure 90% of the team hates me and if they don't hate me, i'm pretty sure they'll soon start
brings up my 2nd argument (sorry still in debate mode) kelly left. okay i will admit i'm not 100% sad about this. i hate people being better than me at stuff. BUT! i was willing to sacrifice a little because with her it meant we might have a chance at actually not being dead last this year
and my last argument is: i'm a little nervous going into the season. it's teh first time i'm 100% alone. like truly alone except for the few matches noor and juwon go to. and i'm sad. i miss megan and i miss having people that actually listen to me. they wanted to vote for captain, meaning of course i wouldn't be captain next year. which i'd admit, would suck. actually to the point where i would just quit golf. actually i'm really close todoing that this year. idk we'll see but idk i'm not so into it and it's just not fun i guess anymore.
next: debates today!
they were really good i either went 3-1 or 4-0 today so we'll see :) meaning my overall record was either 7-1 or 6-2 whcih is AMAZING considering everyone here is like pretty decent debaters :D
tongiht was fun too...i really like hanging out with paige and sarah and virginia and may they're really fun :D
yoshi was kind of a party pooper though she didn't want to do anything
sam walking around with his shirt off hahaha showing his six pack
lab was crazy...basketball woot! haha
okay i'm like really tired and at least we getta sleep in but i'm still like really tired so i'm going to bed now :)