i feel...

...appreciated
...nervous
...scared
...excited
...angry
...anxious
isn't it weird how you can feel so many different ways at once? and i feel all those emotions becuase of different events that either already occured or that are going to happen...its weird to keep them all inside of me...i really wish someone would be able to understand it all...but i know that if i told someone everything i'd probably end up losing them as a friend XD
one thing though...very glad for one (extremely) blond girl...it's always fun to talk to her...and she's the only one that i would (contemplate) telling a lot of stuff to...
i hate crazy taxi...sorry that was random
i'm really tired
i love pandora...its super cool...
and ive just spent the last 2ish hrs looking at formal dresses...just for fun :)
i really like wednesdays...i have a pattern...sleep in really late then get up, get ready, don't eat anything, go to starbucks, then go to bingo
and bingo is really fun
like really
idk why i think it's the people...and even though there were people there today that i REALLY dislike (coughkylercough) there are cool people...we forgot a deck of cards today but we still managed to have fun...amazing :)
i'm already looking forward to next week...only 6 days away ;)
speaking of next week...i start calc ab classes on monday...super exciting -_-
but at least i'll get to go to calc bc next year...so i guess it'l be worth it...i'm gonna be super happy not to have to be in a class with people in my own grade...as long as i get cool people :) i'm hoping to have noor in my class again...(:
i have a HUGE bugbite on the back of my neck...no idea how it got there...but it ITCHES super badly...which was once again really random
sorry like i said i'm super tired
so many people are getting facebooks...i spent the afternoon talking to my best friend from elementary school who i rarely talk to now and a girl who just a year ago hated my guts (i hated hers too) but we made up this year and now she's one of my good friends...
its funny how much can change in the course of a year...people i didn't talk to i now talk to a LOT more...people i used to talk to...i never talk to anymore...or they just don't want me to 'help' them, basically meaning...'don't talk to me' which kinda sux but i guess i have to be okay with it
i noticed that in my blogs i've been doing this lately
i'm still super amazed how much actually changed this year
its truly crazy...like i'm still trying to grasp what all happened
i feel like I personally became a different person
with different goals, motives, and interests
and soon...well...i guess you'll have to wait for the 'soon' part ;)
i havent told anyone my summer plan so don't feel bad :) (though heathers i bet you could guess it...if i'd let you XD)
i have to make this blog super long
so if youthough i was just rambling...

...i am...
hehe ok i just wanted to do that XD
but anyway...it's kind of calming blogging right before bed...let's me reflect on the day, see what was good, what was bad...and just kinda lay my thoughts out there...
even though i know no one actually reads it...
just makes me feel a little better i guess
though sometimes it makes me feel worse
like how i didn't talk to someone today
or how i forgot to send out the golf email...again...whcih is really starting to get me behind on stuff
or how i didn't do any apush hw AGAIN today
or any hw for that matter
or how i didn't practice flute today...wiat...i lied i did XD
or how i didn't put my laundry away like my mom asked XD
but i did drive home from bingo...whcih was fun
and pulled into the garage, which my parents almsot never let me do xD
and how we made 200 dollars at bingo tonight...in profits ALONE!!!
and how i really want to go shopping XD
and how excited i am that i get a car all to myself next week and i can basically do ANYTHING i want with it (except crash it XD)
and how i talked to my neighbor that just left for ny to camp xDD
but overall i think today was a good day
and tomorrow i have 6-8 hrs in the car (depending on traffic) do to summer hw...yippee! -_-
and now my pandora station is talking about debt
so i think i'm going to bed now
g'nite!