excuses

so its been a really really long time since i've posted anything...i went through and deleted everything on here except for 2 posts after i started a bluebird blog (which everyone should check out!)for my brother's boyscout project. my parents found out and i am not quite ready for them to know my 'deepest darkest secrets' ;)
but hey, who can blame me right?
a lot has happened in the past couple of months
i'll go back as far as i can remember (don't feel obligated at all to read the whole thing, trust me i know im not a very good writer and not very interesting lols)
and oh yeah it's not gonna be in any particular order
first: ap test, seems like such a long time ago...but it was just under a month ago...everyone says oh i think i failed blah blah blah...i'm pretty confident that i got at least a 3...but of course you can't tell anyone that b/c then it'l make it look likeyou're bragging and you'll just get called more names like nerd etc.
second: mayor's techscholar laptop...yupp im typing on it right now...the stupid s key is broken...barely works...i don't think ive ever owned a laptop where all the keys work at the same time...first laptop...g key broke, (got keyboard replaced) then the left hift key breaks, now this one the s key sux...sigh guess i cant really complain...got it free :)
third: i'm kinda done with numbering stuff so i'll just ramble on (mostly because i'm bored, sick, and really dont' wanna study for health)
i feel like lately i've been getting closer to people i would have never talked to in the beginning of the year and some of my closest friends all year are getting more distant...but then again i kinda felt like i didn't have a 'best friend' until the end of the year...
i'm more irritable now...though i was extremely irritable in the middle of the year too...something about not getting enough sleep and getting pissed off for stupid reasons
which the endof the year is not exception, i am currently pissed off for two reasons and maybe more...i will go into details because im pretty sure no one reading this will understand (if anyone reads it at all :D)
Pissed off reason #1: so in my grade at school there are exactly 5 white guys and 6 full white girls. And every year we have an international assembly where we see a concoction of asian and polynesian and indian dancers/inger/drummers etc. so back in so back in eighth grade (or maybe ninth) i had an idea to do a white dance...idk square dancing, swing dancing, hiphop, tap IDK anything, and becaue there were so few of us it eemed poible (sorry don't mind the lack of sssss)so i find out on friday that a white dance will happen enxt year, but it won't include me...the four white guys are partnering with four white girl and swing dancing...now don't get me wrong that's cool...but imo i would fit better with the group of people they chose...one of teh girl...idk if she even hang out with them...i love her dont get me wrong...but teh guy that she is suppossedly partnering with too...she hates...idk i guess by complaining in a blog no one will read im hoping that something miraculous will occur and i'll get to dance too...but according to one white girl...there aren't enough guys...yes that wa her excuse for not including me...it sux not to be included in something liek this...esp. since i sorta came up with the idea way back when...and it sux to know the real reaon: im apparently not cool enough...and that really really sux
pissed off reaon #2: (gah stupid key) i've been in orchestra at chool for awhile now...first year both me and christine were freshmen...didn't know what to expect...i played piccolo she didnt...luck of the draw, piccolo played 2nd flute so taht teh part i got...2nd flute...(yes this is a very very long explanation...but i've got nothing better to do anyway xD) and she got first...becasue 2nd was filled...taht's how its been for 2 yrs now...her first me second/piccolo...and me and kelley finally saw our break when the only sr from our ection is a first flute and is graduating this yr...logical choice for ection leader...kelley my lovely stand partner...which means logically i'd play first with her...that' just how it goes...and i mean its not like either of us is a bad player..in fact i think were #1 and #2 in our section of flutes...we had already started adopting the firt part role...we played first together in prarie song at our spring show...neither of us wanted to play the solo alone, so we played it together...and BAM! perfectly in tune, something rachel and chritine had never accomplished...(and when i say perfect...i mean PERFECT!) so kelley and i take first part on graduation music...funniest thing...christine asks kelley for brandenburg...can i play first flute on this one? i really like this song...and quite honestly...that' too bad...what if kelley and i really really liked ome other song we had to play 2nd on during teh year...we couldn't turn to her and rachel and be like can we play first we really like this song...it doen't work that way! so christine goes to rachel and complains...and literally 5 min later when im in a group of friends talking about plan for grauduation day (to come later) rachel's all like...o katie i think you're gonna be palying 2nd flute next year...its only fair that since kelley's a senior she plays first, cindy doesn't mind playing second, and christine gets to paly first since she' played it before she also mention how picc plays 2nd part...and i look at her and ask if i have a choice...and in short she say no...liek its all set in stone...and i know im being selfish...but i can't except thi...chritine only paleyd first because she was rachel' standpartner, picc has its own part 99% of teh time, and kelley and i ALREADY know each other's tendencies, we can play in tune with each other, and plsu kelley being a sr. hould get to decide who she plays with...its her last year afterall...and plus rachel wont even be here next year...who is she to decide who plays what part? i've been waiting all weekend to talk to christine because im really hoping i dont have to talkt o miner about something this stupid, but if she doesn't sign on later tonight, i think i'm gonna have to...
i think though that if i have to play second next year, im gonna go to wind ensemble, where i know i can play first without a problem, maybe even be section leader...who knows...but i'd miss orchestra, the people, the music, and all the new friends that ive gotten to know a LOT better this year, mainly because of orchestra
but that's enough for reasons why im pissed off :)
ya know...i might not even post it...but i think i will...we'll see when i get to the end...
oh yeah CIF CHAMPIONS BABY!!! taht's right, baseball won CIF CHAMPIONSHIP friday for the first time in school history! it was SO AWESOME to get to watch everyone paly, and they all played great! but i lost my voice :( and now i'm sick :((
counting down the days till summer...this week should be pretty uneventful...yearbooks tuesday, englih final tuesday, math final thursday, rockstock on saturday (YAY!) along with the ACT (boo!) sunday angel's game in the diamond club! :) (need to remind dad to get all star game ticket for next year!) then graduation on tuesday of next week...and as far as i know...all of teh orch sophomores (minus a few) are going to teh gardenwalk to either watch a movie, eat, or go bowling :) i can't wait...perfect way to end the school year eventhough we have to play at stupid graduation
and then its' summer...so much going on but at teh same time nothing at all...got some goals for myself and some things i want to do...first off...learn to catch...i know that sounds stupid, but i wanna be a much better catcher next eyar than i was this year...and if my bro decides to play baseball next year (mental note to ask about summer baseball/practices etc...) i can have an excuse to go to the batting cages and improve like every aspect of my game...i really really wanna make varsity next year...
gonna learn to fence...been a long time goal of mine and i finally decided to do it this summer
also gonna go to agility classes with my pooch
volunteering at a vet clinic over teh summer (which should be really fun/interesting)
taking calc AB classes at school so i can be in calc bc next year (yes its stupid and i dont need to...but if it means an extra free class sr yr then im all for it!)
summer hw...ugh enough said (though i lsot my LAOW book so taht kinda sux)
and speech and debate camp (at stanford!) (and at oxford!) hahahah not exclamation but thats ok :D
oh and hopefully i'll get my car over summer...i'll def. need it!
and...most lofty goal...i'm not gonna write on here b/c there is a slim chance someone might read it...and im not quite ready to tell anyone yet (even heather ;D) though it comes in 2 parts XD
i've been writing this blog for almost an hr now....an hr in 4 min
lol so i'll keep writing...
i was looking at old year books today (long story..but basically my bro had my yb from last yr in hi room so i took it and started looking at it...then started looking at all the other ones too) but its really funny how people have changed and grown...who would ahve know that after a major-ish fight in 8th grade, that same person would be once again one of my good friends...who would have known taht some of my closest friends in 7th/8th grade are people i despise now...and who would have guessed where i was now? taht i stayed at oxford when so many other people have left...i'm sure we've lost at least 1/2 of our original 7th grade class, if not more...and the friends i have today, are truly amazing and i would hate to lsoe them, but tahts what i said 3 years ago too at the end of seventh grade...and who would have guessed 4 years ago at the start of seventh grade taht i'd spend an hour writing a blog? haha things have definitely changed...i've made friends, and i've made enemies...i've gotten to know people a lot better, had crushes and boyfriends, and pulled all nighters...and as much as we all hate oxford, it's changed us in more ways than one...who knows where i would be now if i had stayed at fairmont...but everything's different here...i'm no longer a straight a student, but i'm okay with that...i'm something more...i can call myself semi-athletic (yes that's right a varsity athelete hahaha), talented (almost 7 yrs of flute) smart (almost straight a's but over 4.0 gpa) and social (do i need to name all of my wonderful friends) all at the same time...
and i've realized...the best way to make new friends...

bake cupcakes ;)
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